And I so I tried on approximately gazillion suits (some bikini, some not) and I learned some things about what I like on me. Interestingly, bandeau-style tops are my friends; I had no idea. Essentially like the one in this picture, though as you can imagine, I look nothing like her (http://www.hapari.com/product_images/u/702/2012-su-BoardwalkBandeauBikini-Sapphire__31096_zoom.jpg). Much better for my body than the skimpy little triangle style.
And a sales clerk suggested I try boy shorts instead of bikini bottoms, and while Kat and Kevin are both dubious, I really like them. So I ended up buying a bikini top, and a boy short bottom. What the hell. And then, because I am not foolish, I also bought a tankini top because I am not at all sure I am ready to wear the bikini top in public. Because there is no denying that two children and quite a lot of delicious food have left me with a decided generosity in the midsection. And it has been a long winter here in Chicago.
But y'know -- I actually tried on, and then bought, a bikini top. Holding out the distinct possibility that I might wear it in public in the near(ish) future. I am calling that a victory.