Trying not to freak out about what the consequences of all this; if I'm still living with Kevin next year, then it's not so bad -- it just means that I can't get a head start on paying off my student loans. If I'm not living with Kevin...well, then it might make sense to take a Teaching Fellowship and move back to Utah for a year. They'd pay me $10,000 to teach 2 and 1 (two classes one semester, one class the other). If I don't do that, then I'd have to find a job adjuncting or temping in Chicago or California, probably working twice as many hours to earn even that much. And cost of living is higher in both places -- rent and such. I'd need to get a roommate, or roommates.
It makes more sense to move back to Utah. I so do not want to move back to Utah. So do not. Argh.
Maybe I'll go hide in Karen's guest room for a year. Karen? Need a live-in babysitter?
(This is all premature freaking-out, obviously. I can't help myself.)