Trying not to freak out about what the consequences of all this; if I'm still living with Kevin next year, then it's not so bad -- it just means that I can't get a head start on paying off my student loans. If I'm not living with Kevin...well, then it might make sense to take a Teaching Fellowship and move back to Utah for a year. They'd pay me $10,000 to teach 2 and 1 (two classes one semester, one class the other). If I don't do that, then I'd have to find a job adjuncting or temping in Chicago or California, probably working twice as many hours to earn even that much. And cost of living is higher in both places -- rent and such. I'd need to get a roommate, or roommates.
It makes more sense to move back to Utah. I so do not want to move back to Utah. So do not. Argh.
Maybe I'll go hide in Karen's guest room for a year. Karen? Need a live-in babysitter?
(This is all premature freaking-out, obviously. I can't help myself.)
To clarify, because a few of you have e-mailed to ask, Kevin and I are very happy, but we weren’t sure if we would be living together next year (or long-term), because we still have some long-term differences in goals/plans, which might not mesh well. We had planned to discuss all that after my exams, and make plans for next year, etc. — I guess the timetable will have to be moved up somewhat, since the Utah people need to know by 4/15 whether I want the TF-ship.
Re: year-long guestroom stint: I can take it if you can. Pay in chicken curries, please.
This isn’t entirely on topic, Mary Anne, but the bit where it’s supposed to tell me how many comments people have made on your posts seems to be broken — it always indicates zero. I usually prefer to e-mail comments, but I was feeling bad that nobody was ever taking advantage of your comment section, and then I discovered that people were. Is this my browser, do you think? Or…what?
Oops. I had forgotten about the option of going to current.php instead of going through the list-of-recent-entries page. Fixed now. Apologies. (Thanks for pointing this out, M’ris!)
Those who use current.php may want to look at the list-of-recent-entries page to see all the comments you’ve missed over the past couple weeks….
Thanks for fixing that, Jed.
I’m feeling a little better about all this today, though there’s still a little part of my brain saying, “They took away $12,000 from me! Out of the blue! It’s not fair!” And it’s not fair, but it’s not as if they wanted to do it, so it’s hard to work up a righteous fury about it. Just crankiness there.
I’ll feel better once I have a chance to talk to Kevin, though. Not likely to happen today or tomorrow — all busy with conference stuff. Maybe Sunday. Probably Monday, once I get home.
Sigh.