Jed and I were talking about whether to mention such things (the kind you don't want to be explicit about) in journals at all. I don't think he needs to talk about them in his journal, which is very different in style, but in mine...my journal's supposd to be a record of my life, y'know? For you, but also for me. If I look back at this in fifty years, I want to be reminded of the low points as well as everything else. It wouldn't feel right to leave anything important out completely. So I put in placeholders -- vaguenesses, or poetry, or even an occasional code phrase. (I.e., "watched some baseball" could mean "had great, world-shattering sex" -- it doesn't, but it could. :-) There's not a lot of that kind of thing, but some. Hopefully it doesn't annoy you guys too much.
Despite all of yesterday's stress, I really did enjoy working on my story yesterday; hopefully, I'll enjoy today too. Part of the fun yesterday was the music -- I now have 33 CD's on my computer (everything except the musicals, the classical, and the Christmas stuff), and I set them to shuffle. It was so cool having no idea what'd come up next -- I can't even remember the names of that many CD's, much less what songs are on them. It made it even easier to disassociate from the music, in an odd way -- when I'm playing a CD in order that I know, part of my brain is anticipating the next song, keeping track of the order. My brain was foiled in its attempts to to do that yesterday. Cool.
I'm having a bit of a hard time settling down to actually working; I slept 'til 9, about two hours later than I have been. Probably good for me, but it's thrown me off. I simultaneously don't feel ready to work, and feel like I've lost two hours already, eep! I think I'll do some mindless things, like cleaning the bathroom, or sorting the papers on my desk, until I'm ready to actually put on the headphones and start revising. Or I may read -- started Murakami's The Wind-Up Bird Chronicles yesterday, which Kevin recommended (though I was already planning on reading it) -- fascinating. I suspect if you like Jonathan Carroll, you may like this. Though I'm not sure yet...