I'm going to finish reading What the Body Remembers instead. Maybe by the time I've finished it, all the difficult e-mail will have mysteriously gone away.
Emotional status update: I spent several months basically on the verge of tears all the time. After a week of quiet, and the house-moving, party-planning being finished, I'm feeling somewhat calmer. Had a long emotional conversation yesterday that I've been putting off for months because I couldn't handle it, and survived it, barely. So slowly, slowly, I improve. Though it would still be nice to have more nice e-mail in my mailbox.