I’m not sure why this fall has been so difficult — obviously, we had a death in the family, which is hard, and that’s led to a bunch of time Kevin needs to put in on estate paperwork, which is also hard.
I did open a second shop unexpectedly, but that hasn’t actually been that much more time than the first one — some hours in the week of set-up, but it’s back to normal now (it helps a lot that when it’s slow, I’ve been able to deal with e-mail and even do some crafting at the shop).
Kavi has college apps to work on, and college stress…. I guess those are good reasons to be anxious and tired. Anand is basically doing fine, though freshman year has more work than he had in middle school and less free time, which makes him cranky.
Kevin and I keep going to bed and telling each other about our hard days. Fretting about the kids. Wondering when the days will get easier. Soon, hopefully.
Today, I only had one brief meeting, so for the first time in a while, I’ve been able to putter at my own pace. There’s still more annoying paperwork than I want to deal with, but it helps a lot, being able to switch from that to crafting / gardening and back again as desired. My ADHD meds are back in stock, which definitely helps too — I feel a lot more overwhelmed and unable to cope without them.
Crafting, gardening, writing, and the more creative kinds of cooking are what tend to return me to my self, let me feel stable again. Trying to find at least a little time for all of those.
Anyway, here are some tomatoes. Hopefully things will get better soon.
