Cancer log 99: I feel oddly conflicted about the blue hair. It is undeniably pretty, and I think I probably look a decade younger now that my hair isn't so aggressively silver-grey. But do I actually want to look a decade younger? I kind of like being almost-44. Work and home and family are all so good, so much what I've been working towards all these years. Aside from the whole cancer thing, I probably feel better and healthier and happier than at any other time in my life. And I admit, the whole cancer thing is a bit of a downer on that front, but still. Hmmm.