Like -- despite our trying awfully hard not to buy stuff right because we need to save all our money for, y'know, doors and windows and such, I was stressed enough about WisCon clothes that I bought a new sari to wear for my big speech on Sunday night. Is that feminist? And today, I spent two hours at a salon having my hair professionally colored, spending both money and childcare time, time which is being bought from our childcare provider, an immigrant woman who I'm pretty sure can't afford to get her hair colored at a salon. So there's some class and gender issues right there. (Although to be fair, Jarmila has almost finished her master's degree, so she's going to be entering the professional class soon. Bad for us, but good for her.) I could have colored my hair at home myself for $9 (what I do most months) -- or I could have just said to hell with it and let it go grey. But no. I am too addicted to people being startled when I tell them I'm almost 40. Grey hair would give the game away.
And I wish I'd managed to lose at least ten pounds before this weekend (I lost two pounds, woohoo), and to be honest, twenty would be better and forty would actually get me back to my college weight, which would be super-exciting. But of course, maybe expecting an almost-40-year-old woman who bore two kids to still have the body of an 18-year-old is just a tad unrealistic. Can't I just be happy with a more 'motherly' figure? Kavi loves snuggling into my well-cushioned lap. For most of human history, women my age would be heading past motherhood and entering the crone phase, for pete's sake.
Ah well. I do a fair bit of feminist work both in the world and in my own head; I don't think we're going to conquer it all in this generation. I have to leave some work for Kavi and Anand to do, right?
I'll post my WisCon schedule as soon as I pull it together. I'm guessing anyone who's coming already has their plans in place, but just in case anyone local is waffling, it really is the best con. Well worth a 2.5 hr drive (or bus ride) up from Chicago. And it's not too late to find someone to share a hotel room with. I suppose it's possible registration is sold out, but I'm guessing not -- there are always some cancellations close to the date, due to illness, financial exigency, etc.