when did you fall
when did you fall
when did you fall, in love with him?
- her eyes were closed.
across a crowded room?
she bit her lip.
she was drunk,
we were all drunk, at least a little
and nervous.
did his eyes catch yours?
and her fingers clenched;
she whispered a moan, high-pitched,
his hand between her thighs,
my fingers on her breast,
our motions unsynchronized,
but still. she whispers
did you look at him, and know?
and arches, and I am guessing
but moving, greatly daring,
bending down to kiss her once,
twice. her eyes still closed. her lips
wet, reaching. he does something
I miss, and she — convulses.
and stills. her eyes closed
did he smile?
and the room is suddenly crowded.
we watch her; we wait.
she opens her eyes, and smiles. we
relax. look up at each other,
eyes slipping past, barely touching,
and I am shaking, because I know
something.
something.
*****
9/18/1998