You’ll Understand When You’re Older Dear

Have you ever been in love?
Really in love?
I mean the fairy-tale kind,
with blue skies and never lies,
perfect skin and angel eyes,
and the only argument
is over who loves whom

Me neither.

Have you ever been fucked?
Really fucked?
Bang your head against the
metal bedpost-never notice,
soft sheets or concrete-
makes no difference,
screaming something and if
it’s the wrong name who
fucking gives a damn
god yes,


Some days, you take what you can get.
Some day, maybe you’ll be glad of it.

M.A. Mohanraj
October 8, 1996