Going Away Again

i will not say goodbye again

we have said it too many times

the words are too strong

too sorrowing

and though i’ve meant it each and every time

i cannot go away forever

i will not say

until we meet again

because i have grown tired of breaking promises

to you and to myself

i will only say

(if i think i can handle seeing you and circumstances permit

and if i can’t bear not seeing you and i think i can stay me

and you stay you, i will joyfully touch my lips to yours and

arms will hold and skin to skin friends the words will sing)

    or

i love you.

*****

M.A. Mohanraj

August 24, 1993