Well, a very productive…

Well, a very productive morning. Just wrote two little stories, "A Jewel of a Woman" and "The Survey". Think I'm selling them to Sizzle, and since they don't care about whether I have stories on my own pages or not, if I still like 'em in a week, I'll probably add them to my stories page. Shows what you can do if you go to bed at 9:30 and get up at 6:00. :-)

In other news, the concert is in half an hour, and true to form, I'm starting to get nervous. You would think that after all these years of performing, I'd be over this, but apparently, I'm the sort of person who never gets over being nervous, even when I know the material stone cold and it's only a piddly little student concert. I had a nightmare last night that I got up on stage and forgot my fingerings -- that I tried playing recorder with flute fingerings, and if you know anything about the instruments, you'll realize what a horrible sound that would make. Ah well. At least I don't get as terrified playing as I do when I'm reading my work aloud to an audience (I'm generally ok in class these days). Please keep that in mind if any of you ever here me read -- be nice, okay? I'm probably shaking up there...

This afternoon is dedicated to more gardening and grocery shopping for the party. Want to have the place looking spiffy. I'm trying to think what makes good veggie sandwiches -- I've decided on potato curry and egg salad, but can't think of anything else. Maybe I'll just make tuna salad and stick it on the 'meat' table. Don't suppose anyone out there has a power mower they want to drop by before Sunday? Imagine, poor pitiful me hacking at the grass with a weed clipper and then running a battered hand mower over it (it's our own fault for not mowing it for so long, I suppose, but I kind of liked the jungle look -- not good for guests, though).

I saw the oddest little creature in the garden yesterday. Sort of like a rat, but bigger, with a white face and a sort of grey-white body. Don't know what that would be -- any ideas?

Ah well...enough procrastinating. Time to head back to the chapel and warm up. Wish me luck.

Happy May Day! Lots…

Happy May Day! Lots going on, and I'm not sure where to start. Well, I'm playing recorder in a concert tomorrow -- early music at Mills, 12 noon, the chapel. It's a free concert, so if you're in the area, feel free to stop by.

I'm still really swamped with work, but the end is drawing into sight. Next week Thursday -- only one more week. I'm going to try to take it moderately easy this weekend -- as easy as one can take it when one is throwing a party on Sunday. :-)

Doing a lot of gardening these days. Tomato, basil, chili peppers and bell peppers, flower bulbs, general clean-up (and boy does the garden need it!) Fun, but tiring. Good for me, I suppose.

Well, best back to work. Lots of bills, but luckily lots of work to pay for those bills. If I just get the invoices off in time...

Okay, feeling much…

Okay, feeling much better. Sorry about that Friday entry. I'm really overloaded with work right now -- but just another week and a half and I'll be done. My current stress is trying to finish a draft paper that was due a while ago (flexible due date)...I'm enjoying writing it, but it does take time. I should undoubtedly be working on that now, or at least doing the Arliss revisions that are due Tuesday...well, later. I'm procrastinating by writing to you and cleaning the house (needed it!) and I have some gardening to do later (but I think it'll have to be a reward -- I don't get to do it until I get some work done. I tend to work that way -- setting myself tasks, with other, more pleasant tasks as rewards. :-) Sort of going back and forth through the day.

Had a lot of fun as well as stress the last couple of days -- went down to see Kev at his parents' Friday, and we did work together and then socialized. Saw a pretty silly play, Middle-Aged White Guys -- not profound, but made us laugh a lot. Yesterday, more work, more hanging out, then last night went to Greyhaven for a Bardic Circle. Some really excellent poets, all sitting around and reading/reciting/singing their work. Liked it a lot. Stayed 'til 2, which is part of the reason I'm a bit slow today (got up at 7, but moving slooowly :-).

Finished Zimmer's The Lost Prince -- not bad at all. He knows war really well, which is good, although at times a bit much for my tastes. His characters were interesting, and I'm really curious about what's going to happen to one couple...major cliffhanger ending. Have to get the rest of the trilogy.

Hmmm...not much else to report, really. Work work work. I promise, I'll be more interesting soon.

Hiya. Sorry haven’t…

Hiya. Sorry haven't been around much, but it's end of the semester, and crunch-time. The next few weeks will be very sparse in diary entries, I fear.

The big news in my life is that Kevin may be out tonight. Tentative hooray! It all depends on frequent flyer miles and availability, etc...cross your fingers.

Hmmm..not much else to report. Wrote a new short story today (very short) -- we'll see how the class likes it. Wrote a bunch more on Dreams last night. Should be hitting a solid 200 pages by the end of the semester, I hope. Rate of progress seems to be accelerating as I get the story more set in my mind, thank goddess. Interestingly, I find that I am writing this story both non-sequentially and in layers. Kind of hard to explain what I mean by that -- maybe I'll take a long diary entry some day and try nto explain the whole thing in detail. People are always asking me what my 'process' is, so I assume this actually is a subject that readers would be interested in...

Back to work. Crack that whip!

Hey, guys. Not much to…

Hey, guys. Not much to report -- mostly rested and puttered around the house today (cleaned out the hall closet, etc. :-). Did manage to get a little work done for a new site (I'm basically writing ad copy for them), which is good (it's late, which is not good...sigh).

I'm trying not to fret about academic stuff...there's going to be a bit of a pile up at the end of the semester. Deep breath...

At least it's looking a lot more comfortable financially, thank the deity. That's a bit of a weight off.

Hmm...not really much to report. About halfway through Vonnegut's Hocus Pocus, which Kevin lent me ages and ages ago. Pretty good, though I'm a bit too tired to keep coherent track of the wildly flailing plotline.

It's raining. That's really nice.

I just woke up from a nap. Can you tell?

Have a good weekend, everyone. Sweet dreams.

Sorry for not writing…

Sorry for not writing for a while, but my life has rather been in turmoil. Mostly better now, but just didn't have a chance to get to this journal. There's so much to tell you guys...not sure where to begin.

Well, there were new developments in the Great Poetry Debate (4/10/97 entry). I'm not going to go into it in depth, but briefly, some people from class ran across my journal entry and got really upset. It all got aired in class yesterday, which was difficult, but on the whole a good thing, I think. At least the problems/issues were aired, even if they weren't quite settled. One thing that was made clear was that a lot of people in the class felt uncomfortable at the idea of having their critiques posted on a web page, even with the names stripped, so I agreed to take out the text of the quotes. I hadn't realized that people might be upset by that -- wasn't really thinking, I guess. Just too frustrated/upset. Live and learn, I suppose. Time to move on with life...that's probably enough of that issue for now.

Roshani left this morning. It was great having her here -- we provided shoulders for each other. I did get a little overbusy while she was here -- I'm making noises towards having her move out here, so I wanted her to meet my friends. We ended up having dinner parties Tuesday and Wednesday nights (we both love cooking - Indian Tuesday, Italian Wednesday), which were a lot of fun, but I was just so drained from class, etc. that I made myself kind of ill. Spent most of today reading and recovering.

Adam had loaned me a really excellent book, An Exchange of Hostages, by Susan R. Matthews. To quote the back cover, "A promising young surgeon, Andrej Koscuisko has come, with great reluctance, to study at a military orientation center adrift in black space. Against his will, he will train here to serve as a 'Ship's Inquisitor' -- a vocation that runs counter to his deepest moral convictions." It was really engrossing -- the kind of book that you don't want to put down and wish was several hundred pages longer. Luckily, while it's not officially part of a series (it works as a stand alone book), it's pretty clear that she intends to continue the story. I'm awaiting it eagerly.

Also read recently was Toni Morrison's Song of Solomon. It has a really lovely digressive, storytelling tone -- I think that's what I liked best about the book. She has a really deft hand at characterization as well -- I must admit to being envious. Ah, gone are the days when I could just read a book and enjoy it for itself without thinking, 'hmmm...that's an interesting trick of characterization'...or plot, or style, etc.... Not that I'm really complaining. Though I've started doing it with movies too. Thank god for romance novels, most of which have none of that to worry my head about. :-) There are definitely times when one wants a little mind-candy.

I've also started Cisneros' Woman Hollering Creek, a collection of short stories. So far, very promising....I'll try to let you know how it goes.

The weather's gorgeous. I'm very tempted to just mark this day off as a healing day and go sit under a tree and play my flute. But I ought to get a little work done first -- I'd like to raise the money for Clarion and my summer expenses before the end of June. That may be a little complex, since I think I'll be spending approximately May 16 - June 13 in Chicago. My semester will be over, and I think I can work just as well in Chicago as here. And I miss Kevin.

Oh, I did get some good news in the last couple days -- won second place for graduate fiction in a Mills writing contest, and was awarded a teaching assistantship for next year (significant financial help). I'm nervous about it, but looking forward to it as well. I'll be teaching analytical, not creative, writing, but it should still be very interesting and hopefully fun. I've really enjoyed teaching the times I've done it before. It does mess up my schedule a bit for the fall, since I'm required to take a class on teaching -- I'm having a hard time deciding what else I'll be taking. I really want to take a class with Ginu Kamani, author of Junglee Girl, who's a visiting professor next year. Well, we'll see what happens in the fall.

Well, I think that mostly covers the last couple of days. Tomorrow should also be quiet, and Saturday I'm having dinner with Sherman and his parents (really nice people, and his mom likes Star Trek!) Lot of stuff due for my poetry class Wednesday, so that's the main focus for the next week. I should really also get going on my final paper for my Modern Fiction class. Don't think I have much left to do for my fiction writing class -- I've actually been working pretty hard in that one. The novel is up to about 180 pages. If Clarion goes well this summer (the focus is on short stories, but I should still have a lot of time to work on the novel), then I'm vaguely hoping to actually finish the thing by the end of the summer. Probably over-optimistic, but it's good to aim high, right? :-)

Okay, best get a little work done. Talk to you later, guys.

Remember, tomorrow is…

Remember, tomorrow is tax day! Just a little public service announcement...time to file those extensions. :-)

Life is going pretty well over here. Didn't get much done over the weekend, but had a fair bit of fun socializing. Roshani arrived last night, and we spent the morning working (I told you she's studying for her MCAT, right?). I finished revisions on Deep in the Valley, and sent that out to Herotica 6 and Circlet Press, also sent a copy of Just Reading News to the Good Vibrations Sex Toy anthology. Cross your fingers for me....

Ongoing projects -- I need to read Toni Morrison's Song of Solomon today, and should also revise Season of Marriage for Herotica 6 if I get a chance. I think Roshani and I will probably be going up to Berkeley (hit a coffeeshop, work a little) this evening, and then will be dancing at the Starry Plow tonight. If you're in the area, feel free to stop by and say hi. :-)

Not much else to report -- it's a beautiful day, as always, and life is generally good.

Hey, guys? Thanks. So…

Hey, guys? Thanks. So many of you wrote, telling me you disagreed with those critics in my class, and giving me all sorts of reasons, in case I didn't believe you...:-) Really, I appreciate it.

I've thought about the poem some, and decided that it really can't be reasonably read as racist or sexist out of context of Will Alexander -- and it wasn't meant to be addressed to him. So I'm not going to worry about those aspects. It probably could be sharpened some, to get my message across more clearly -- we'll see what happens when I revise at the end of the semester.

In the rest of my life, things are going very well. I just finished an e-mail inteview with Escape Magazine this morning (no, I have no idea who they are, but they asked to interview me -- should I say no? :-). I revised Just Reading News for an anthology submission, and did some more work on Deep in the Valley. Still would like to get Season of Marriage revised today -- we'll see. It's a little odd doing revisions of work that's been out there so long -- I'm not sure how other writers handle this. I haven't seen stories marked version 1.1, 1.2, etc. :-) Guess I'll just leave the old version up on the web pages -- it's in archives that way anyway, and send out the new one. Perhaps it'll cause some confusion, but I can't think of a better way to handle it.

Roshani's coming to visit! Hooray, hoorah -- she'll be here Sunday through Thursday, which will be very nice indeed. She's in the midst of studying for the MCAT's, so hopefully we can prod each other to get a lot of work done.

Tonight's dinner at a friend's house, and tomorrow night's a friend's birthday party, so busy weekend. I'm hoping to do some gardening this weekend -- well, hoe out all the weeds in the vegetable garden (it's actually more like a thick carpet of grass at this point, argh), and get it into shape to do a little planting. I'm going to attempt tomatoes, red peppers, chili peppers, and basil, to start. We'll see. :-) Any recommendations from gardener-types out there will be welcome - I bought a book and read it, but I've never done anything like this before.

I have a feeling there was something else I meant to tell you guys, but I can't remember what it is. Hate that. Guess I'll come back and add it if I think of it. If I don't talk to you again, have a good weekend (you've undoubtedly noticed at this point that the journal is even more erratic than usual on the weekends :-).