Hey everyone. It’s…

Hey everyone. It's David's birthday today - if you know him (unlikely :-) say 'Happy Birthday!' Today is also a red-letter-day because I wrote a story today (which I haven't done in a while). I even submitted it to Black October Magazine...it's a mild horror piece, a vampire story that I'll also be sending to Cecelia Tan at Circlet Press (she inspired it with her guidelines for Cherished Blood (erotic vampire stories...). Now I'm thinking about what I could do for her Sex Crimes anthology.

Other than that, the weather is hideous (snow and hail), California is sounding very good right now, and I'm feeling buy kamagra gel somewhat sick again. Don't know if this is the medication or just a virus, but I'm getting really tired of being sick. Weather is horrible enough that I think I'm going to skip dance class and just go rest tonight.

I want spring.

Y'know, I can't put the new story up here, or I lose the ability to sell First North American Serial Rights -- however, I could put up a paragraph or two if any of you are interested in seeing what my sf/f/h writing is like. Drop me a note if so. I don't want to frustrate anyone...

So I got a phone call…

So I got a phone call yesterday with fabulous news -- I got into Mills for grad school! (MFA in writing in Oakland, CA). Mills was pretty high up on my list of choices, and unless Boston U takes me (they rejected me last year), then odds are good I'll go there. Of course, now we wait to hear from the other schools and start fretting about financial aid...(but right now I'm just ecstatic anyway...:-)

My site was also named Cruel Site of the Day today. :-) Check the home page for the link to them...I've done some rearranging and adding stuff there too. Hope everyone else is having a good day -- I don't have much else to say...

I’ve been approved to…

I've been approved to write web reviews - $5/review for 75-150 words. Seems like a good deal to me -- let's hope they like the reviews and offer me more. :-)

Life otherwise is still good -- had a good dance class last night (they're always good, actually -- the only problem is talking myself into going to them -- I've been pretty virtuous the last couple of weeks, though), then came home and watched the Academy Awards for a while. Really happy about the Chuck Jones lifetime achievement award -- he well deserves it for that animation. Was a little disappointed that Apollo 13 didn't win best picture -- oh well... At least they had Whoopi Goldberg hosting them -- I adore her. :-) And Emma Thompson and Robin Williams were both fabulous introducers, as expected.

I only watched about half, but someone who watched the whole thing posted this to a private mailing list I read: "The Oscars were such a treat last night. Not only did one of the technical winners thank his male lover, but after the presentation of the song "Have you Ever Really Loved a Woman?", Whoopi, the host of the show, said: "If I told you the answer to that question, would you still be my friend?" and then smirked in a way only she can. ::snap::
Whoopi may be the most visible bisexual on the planet now!"

Another small step...didn't I say she was cool? :-)

Not much else to say -- slow day. Hope you all are doing well...

3:30 -- Added a bunch of new links to the home page miscellaneous...

Morning, everyone….

Morning, everyone. (There are approximately 62 of you reading this -- isn't that good to know? I'm tempted to have you send in bios so you can introduce yourselves to each other...:-). It's a beautiful spring day today (finally!), which has put me in a good mood. I also have dance class tonight (I almost went to a class Saturday as well, but decided that might be overdoing it a bit :-), which is good. And I had a great weekend...

I told you that I had friends coming from out of town, right? So Alex and Julia arrived Friday afternoon; we spent Friday evening cooking a big dinner and talking and hanging out; Saturday got up outrageously early 'cause the guys (Alex and Kevin) were playing in a go tournament that started at some ridiculous hour; Julia and I went to the Philadelphia Museum of Art, (I especially love the Romantics, the medieval and the Asian art (they did a really gorgeous job recently of renovating the latter two display areas, with actual architecture from the appropriate areas), and then had a long and decadent lunch (wine in the afternoon :-) and caught up on gossip before going to watch the tournament (Kevin won 3/4, Alex 1/4 (but Alex's first game was against the US Champion, and his last opponent was also extremely strong, so we'll forgive him :-) and then we headed home to play Magic and talk some more. Sunday was more laziness (made crepes for breakfast) and chatting -- eventually we watched a movie (Go Fish, great (if somewhat jaggedly so) film) and then they had to go... Very sad to see them leave, but was so nice to see them.

Stopped by Jason's briefly later. He has a table saw! I am very jealous. (I used to do a lot of tech stuff in college, and miss messing around with wood and sharp blades...:-)

Finished Original Sin at some point this weekend. Very good mystery -- pretty bleak. Excellent ending. Wish she'd go a little easier on her characters sometimes... Currently reading a collection of Le Guin short stories - The Wind's Twelve Quarters, which I am enjoying immensely, as expected. She writes so beautifully -- it's a real pleasure and inspiration, even reading her earlier work.

12:30 - Just joined the CIEC. If you're interested in fighting the good fight against internet censorship, you might want to sign up here.

3:00 - Added two of Kael Goodman's stories to my stories page. Kael is a really good writer, and I encourage you guys to swing by there and check them out. Also added a link to a sf/f/h market list on my home page.

Hey! In an awesomely…

Hey! In an awesomely good mood today (actually, I've been in this mood ever since dance class yesterday :-). Helped along by the fact that my very good friend Alex, math whiz and inscrutable Russian, along with Julia, his girlfriend and my ex-roommate, have just finished a week of losing money at Atlantic City and are coming to visit us this weekend! Very very much looking forward to seeing them again...

Also added a new link to my home page - Random House has put up a Seuss page -- it's a pretty blatant plug for books, but fun nonetheless.

Not much else to report -- oh, someone sent me mail this morning telling me that my Alternative Sexualities in SF/F Booklist was recently mentioned in the Alternative Media section of Science Fiction Age magazine, which is cool. And several teachers wrote to me asking for permission to link to my Children's SF/F List. Which was extremely polite of them -- I don't usually bother to ask before linking, though I do before actually copying information over and posting it. A small distinction, but I think meaningful.

Hope you all have a fabulous weekend -- I'm also feeling good because two exercises I wrote for my writing workshop show promise of possibly turning into a story. I haven't written much in a month or two (except for those two poems), and so I'm pretty happy about these. They were exercises on character and surroundings, each to be under 300 words and used to define a character. I include them for your weekend-to-be enjoyment. :-)

11:30 - also added to my home page from a fellow U Chicago person's page. Greg not only has some great Zelazny (god, I can't believe he's actually dead) quotes, but he has a really nice writing style and an enjoyable and funny page. Even though he's a physics geek. :-)

3:00 - Wrote another poem.

3:30 - I sent a copy of the poem to Jordan; he sent me back this, and I thought I'd share it with you.

Woken, I lay in the arms of my own warmth and listened
To a storm enjoying its storminess in the winter dark
Till my ear, as it can when half-asleep or half-sober,
Set to work to unscramble that interjectory uproar,
Construing its airy vowels and watery consonants
Into a love-speach indicative of a Proper Name.

Scarcely the tongue I should have chosen, yet, as well
As harshness and clumsiness would allow, it spoke in your praise,
Kenning you a god-child of the Moon and the West Wind
With power to tame both real and imaginary monsters,
Likening your poise of being to an upland county,
Here green on purpose, there pure blue for luck.

-- W. H. Auden, from _First_Things_First_

Feeling all virtuous…

Feeling all virtuous because I'm doing my entry and it's only 10:00.

Very pleasant day yesterday. Worked hard, cleared off my desk, dealt with a bunch of old mail (yes, Brian, I'm getting to yours today :-), went over to Dave's after work and had yummy dinner (remember that crepes recipe? Well, we took chunks of chicken, onion and red and green pepper, sauteed them with this packet of fajita spices he had, and wrapped them in crepes. Tortillas definitely work better (thicker and hold the stuff together better), but it was a very good improvisation, nonetheless. :-)

Basically spent the evening talking, occasionally reading more P.D. James, and watching Party of Five. Good episode. They did this sweet thing where one character was writing a fairy tale, which they did as a voice over (not very well-written, but that's ok, it's in character), in which the couple lives happily ever after -- while in the meantime you're seeing them (Justin and Julia) breaking up in real life. Nicely carried off. They've got some damn good writers working on this show. Next week is the 2 hour season finale. :-)

Got a really neat letter from a soldier stationed in Bosnia. It amazes me that people there are reading my pages.

Hey, everyone. Slow on…

Hey, everyone. Slow on the diary today -- sorry! (Funny how I feel guilty now if I don't do an entry early...I hate to think of people checking in and finding nothing new...).

So the meeting last night was actually intriguing. A web publisher interested in writers for a new type of interactive erotic fiction. Any writers out there interested in further details should drop me a line.

Other than that, very quiet evening (watched a little tv), read a Dorothy Gilman mystery (I love the Mrs. Pollifax books -- absolutely adore them. An elderly lady who goes to the CIA and asks to become a spy...) and started a P.D. James mystery, Original Sin, so far good, but very dense. Her books have so much detail -- it's amazing. I'd never have the patience to write that much detail.

Going to Dave's for dinner tonight (and watching of my show, which had better be on this week!). Ran into a very funny article and added it to my pages -- you should read it if you've ever started going to the gym again after too long without exercise.

3:00 - Casey (a reader) sent me a neat senryu (oops, can't remember the author think it's anonymous 19th century) -- thought I'd pass it along:

When you're trying to get it
unwound in bed,
nothing's longer than a kimono sash!

Morning! (Actually, it’s…

Morning! (Actually, it's afternoon, but let's pretend...)

I've been on the weirdest schedule lately. Going to bed around 9 pm (instead of my standard 11-12) and getting up around 5-6 am. Actually seems like it might be good for me -- for no good reason I tend to be in a much better mood during daylight hours. Maybe I'll keep it up.

Went to dance class yesterday! Good for me. :-) Am sore and achy but not actually in serious pain -- an improvement from last time. Maybe I'm slowly getting back into shape? The class is now going to meet twice a week, which is exciting. So next Thursday I'd better go. If you're in the Philly area and interested in beginner jazz, this is a great class with a fabulous teacher -- Koresh dance center, 6:00 Mon and Thurs.

Other than that, not much to report. Read an awful trashy romance yesterday, Love and Splendour. The only reason I read it was a) for the first half of the book I was stuck downtown with nothing else to read and b) because having gotten that far, I felt like I had to finish it, even after coming home to my groaning bookshelves. Ah well -- at least I only paid 75 cents for it. Anyone want it?

Only other real news is that a) I'm meeting with a friend of a friend tonight who claims he has a 'business opportunity' for me -- I'll tell you about it if it turns out to be interesting, and b) I decided that in addition to the exercise, I should probably cut down my fat intake if I want to be truly pumped. Anyone know the fat count on a slice of whole wheat bread, an egg, and a cranberry muffin? (You'd think there'd be a good chart on the web somewhere, but I haven't even been able to find a basic one).

2:00 - Hey, the other poem I wrote yesterday, Blue Spring Thinking, has just been accepted for the April issue of MAKAR, that webzine I mentioned yesterday. Coolness. Talk about immediate gratification. :-)

Oh, and to modify what I was complaining about, there is a semi-decent nutrition chart maintained by the USDA -- it's only problem, is that most of its values are giving per 100 grams, not per reasonable serving. Bit of a nuisance, but better than nothing...

Hey, everyone. Very lazy…

Hey, everyone. Very lazy weekend -- hung out, cleaned my apartment, did some origami, read a bunch of stuff (Akira comics - fun paranoid Japanese post-holocaust sf stuff), Austen's Pride and Prejudice - I keep meaning to go see that movie -- it's probably out of theatres already, but the book was a satiric delight, as always with Austen, and Delany's Tales of Neveryon -- pure pleasure, as always when reading Delany (I wrote my BA thesis basically on him); this particular book of short stories combines masterful storytelling with philosophy and worldbuilding), made potato gnocchi (I used a recipe similar to the first one in the list on this page) which I will never do again unless I have several people to help -- my recipe said to knead well, and even though I halved the recipe, it was a lot of work.

Had a couple people over to brunch Sunday, then went to Amy's for Irish folk singing and her yummy colcannon (baked potato, cabbage and cheese -- trust me, it's good) in celebration of St. Patrick's day (not that any of us were Irish :-).

Basically a good though lazy weekend (I was feeling virtuous, having mailed out six grad school apps in the week before), except for Saturday night, when for no good reason I sunk into the worst funk I've been in in years. Felt as if the world was a horrible place, love never lasts, friendship is fleeting, etc. and so on, you know how it goes. I was fine in the morning, and I really have no idea what brought that on. Glad I don't feel like that all the time...

Dance class tonight. Yell at me if I don't go. Added two new links to my home page -- electronic rights and Top 100 SF/Fantasy List.

3:00 - Wrote a new poem: The Case Against Entropy, Take 2 (or 200, or 2 million)

Castles in the air, you accuse. Don't I know that
Yesterday was never as sweet as remembered; childhood
Nights are full of monsters and schoolyard bully fears.
Ice cream is fattening. Love is entangling. And
Charities skim off at least 98%. Be brave! Face the facts!
All dreams must die, you claim. But I pull you to me,
Laughing. Bravery, I whisper, is dreaming in spite of it all.

4:00 - Just read a lovely story in the March issue of MAKAR -- check out Michael Gates's "Sleep".

Got e-mail from Sage…

Got e-mail from Sage this morning, pointing out that the reason the diary count had gone up was probably because she just added my pages to her diary list. Good point. Was interesting reading her review -- she raises some of the same points that I address in the March 1st entry, about why I keep this journal if I'm editing so much out -- what I get out of it if not emotional release. Hmmm...aside from what I've already said, I should add that I do get some emotional release -- I feel as if I have some invisible friends out there (and not the kind that would get me locked up :-). I've enjoyed living in Philly, and there are a lot of neat people here to hang out with, but I left most of my close friends in Chicago. I can call them, of course, but phone calls get expensive. I'm waiting for the day when those netphone things are a practical, affordable reality. In the meantime (and probably afterwards), you all provide a different sort of sounding board -- less of a place to dump relationship problems (which I still feel somewhat iffy about, given that my parents' friends read this :-), among other people) and more of a place for more abstract emotional concerns (like that political rant I did a while back), and day to day chatting. Anyway, this whole paragraph is rather disgustingly self-absorbed, even for a diary, so onward... (Actually, if you pay close attention, and really care, you probably could figure out a great deal of what I don't explicitly say...)

Last night was weird. Got lazy and made fettucini with chicken and a pre-made alfredo w/mushrooms sauce. Good, but a) very unhealthy and b) I probably could have made the sauce for cheaper with very little more work. Oh well....can't be virtuous all the time. I really have to get back to the dance classes, though -- Tai chi is on Sunday and beginner jazz on Monday. Couldn't do it last week, obviously, since I was in Orlando, but no excuses this week. :-) I must and will go to at least one of them...(I've been fighting 10-15 pounds all my life it seems...it would be nice this summer to have one of those bodies that makes men drool :-). It's in my reach, if I just work at it some - but oh, I am so lazy about exercise...

Hmmm...reading that paragraph makes me realize that I got completely sidetracked from what was weird about last night. I spent the evening in a strange, tense emotional state, but couldn't say exactly why. I couldn't think of a good reason to drag Kevin away from the tv to talk to me (good episode of Friends last night -- Ross and Rachel's first kiss, which I had missed the first time around), but wanted to anyway. Sort of. Eventually did (though I waited until the reruns of Frasier and Mad About You were on (we watch too much tv!)) and felt somewhat better. Went to sleep. Woke up around midnight (and I usually sleep very soundly) with hellish mosquito bites (I HATE HATE HATE mosquitoes. I would gladly exterminate them all from the face of the earth, with great rejoicing. They, on the other hand, seem to adore me), extremely warm, and with racing heartbeat. Very very weird. Took forever to go back to sleep (though I feel fine today). I think I may be on too high a dosage of my thyroid meds -- I think hyperthyroidism (the opposite of what I have) has symptoms similar to those. Will have to check with doc. Nuisance, is what the whole darn thing is...though I guess I should be thankful that I've been as healthy as I have.

Finished 3 more grad school apps yesterday. Emerson and Mills and Boston U. Think good thoughts for me, guys -- I don't know what I'll do if I don't get in somewhere. I refuse to spend another year doing secretarial work -- it drains the soul, even if it does provide lots of writing time.