Yesterday was a relaxation and rest day. Today we need to get back to work; Jed has a small pile of stuff, and I need to do two things -- a) finish reading subs and send out acceptance/rejection letters for the SH workshops, b) get back to writing some fiction on the YA novel. If I'm still hoping to get Sharyn a draft by the 15th or so, then I need to average around 4000 words a day. That's not at all undoable, as long as I actually do it. But I fully intend to try, at least.
This is the summer where I have the luxury to just be a writer; I think in the fall, I'd better find some more steadily paying work, so I can pay off the last of those piled up bills. Might try to find full-time adjunct work again; teaching usually leaves me at least some time to write. I probably don't have to work, but while I'm willing to let Kevin buy me food and let me live rent-free, I'm just not comfortable asking him to help me pay my credit card bills, especially since most of those bills were purely frivolous indulgences, like music and cute clothes and frappucinos. Though there were the couple of thousand in dentist bills...
It's weird, negotiating this shared relationship where finances are concerned. A lot of my friends in couples just seem to throw it all into the pot and divide the results evenly; I'd be more comfortable with that if there weren't such a huge discrepancy between us. Right now, he's got a condo plus a nice steady professorial income; I've got a pile of debt. And the gender thing doesn't help; being a woman supported by a man is an uncomfortably traditional position. I'd much rather it was me supporting him. I keep telling myself that this is a short-term situation -- someday I'll graduate, and then I'll get a job, and this will all even out very quickly. And writing is by its nature erratic financially. But still -- life would be easier if they hadn't cut my fellowship for the coming year. C'est la vie.
What about y'all? Do you just throw it all in together? Is there anyone else out there bothered by this kind of thing, or am I just weird?