Okie. Calm. Calm! I'm just going to spin myself into a panic again if I keep this up.
I actually really would like to go back to the de Beauvoir today and keep reading, but I don't think that's the best way to calm my nerves. Instead, I'm going to review, to go through as many of the books that I haven't done notes on and do the notes, skimming them, writing down the main characters and interesting points regarding them. I'm hoping that this will make me feel smarter. I could use some feeling smarter. Because right now, I'm feeling not so smart. I'm feeling dumb as a post. A short, stubby post, all alone in a field far away from all the other posts. Weatherbeaten. Pissed on by passing animals. Shit on by passing birds. Knocked halfway out of the ground and about to fall over. The life of a post is no fun, I can tell you that.
Somebody please tell me that other Ph.D. students feel this way before their qualifying exams? Susan sounded so calm and prepared before hers. Maybe because she actually was calm and prepared, and I'm just horribly behind and will fail embarrassingly badly. Argh. Argh!